[Fenris feels himself intake air sharply, as if the words struck his heart, because they have. They mean more to him than he can explain, because before Astarion he did not know such reciprocated affection before. This unique and beautiful thing they have between them feels bigger than hearts and love, it's understanding and compassion, it's being intrinsically intertwined.
Because just as Astarion holds his heart, Fenris now holds the elf's in return. A gift he will not squander or mistreat.
He knows those words are honest and real, he doesn't doubt them for a second. Astarion might speak some things carelessly, but rarely has he done it between the two of them.
If only he didn't have the knowledge that his mind would likely forget this when he returns to Thedas, that Astarion will only be remembered in his heart and soul, leaving a void that will never be filled again.. Perhaps that is why he's so intense, because he knows that this is not only fleeting in time, but in memory. That he doesn't get to hang on to this after like a bittersweet kiss when it's over, that all of it will be taken from him.
Hand still cupping the elf's cheek, he guides him down to his lips, where he takes him in an emotionally laden kiss, something deep and desperate and madly in love.]
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Because just as Astarion holds his heart, Fenris now holds the elf's in return. A gift he will not squander or mistreat.
He knows those words are honest and real, he doesn't doubt them for a second. Astarion might speak some things carelessly, but rarely has he done it between the two of them.
If only he didn't have the knowledge that his mind would likely forget this when he returns to Thedas, that Astarion will only be remembered in his heart and soul, leaving a void that will never be filled again.. Perhaps that is why he's so intense, because he knows that this is not only fleeting in time, but in memory. That he doesn't get to hang on to this after like a bittersweet kiss when it's over, that all of it will be taken from him.
Hand still cupping the elf's cheek, he guides him down to his lips, where he takes him in an emotionally laden kiss, something deep and desperate and madly in love.]