Forgive me if I have given you reason to think otherwise, but I've never expected your heart solely to belong to me. In fact, you deserve the freedom of your heart and body, I would never hold you back from that. [His hand comes to rest on the elf's check, cupping it tenderly.
What he feels for Astarion is intense, almost like love but without the leash, he doesn't feel collared or tied down by the love he feels for him and he knows that now. Like Astarion, he also feels seen in a way that he's never known until this man, he feels understood on a soul level that has never happened to him, not even with Hawke. And oh, how he loves Hawke - it's why he cannot give Astarion his whole heart in return either, because Hawke has such a profound hold on it, even if he cannot be loved back by the man.
A soulmate - something he dismissed as fool romantic sayings - is what he feels he's found in Astarion..]
You are profoundly important to me, ma vhenan, in a way no other is, so even if we both warm other beds and welcome the affections of others into our hearts, nothing can change that or take it away. Special feels.. too weak of a word to describe your meaning to me.
[He pauses for a long moment, staring deeply into red eyes, his own ears warm with the affection he feels from Astarion right now. The deep care and consideration the other is showing him by having this conversation with him.] I admit.. this is new to me, but I am open to continuing, finding the niche that fits us.
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What he feels for Astarion is intense, almost like love but without the leash, he doesn't feel collared or tied down by the love he feels for him and he knows that now. Like Astarion, he also feels seen in a way that he's never known until this man, he feels understood on a soul level that has never happened to him, not even with Hawke. And oh, how he loves Hawke - it's why he cannot give Astarion his whole heart in return either, because Hawke has such a profound hold on it, even if he cannot be loved back by the man.
A soulmate - something he dismissed as fool romantic sayings - is what he feels he's found in Astarion..]
You are profoundly important to me, ma vhenan, in a way no other is, so even if we both warm other beds and welcome the affections of others into our hearts, nothing can change that or take it away. Special feels.. too weak of a word to describe your meaning to me.
[He pauses for a long moment, staring deeply into red eyes, his own ears warm with the affection he feels from Astarion right now. The deep care and consideration the other is showing him by having this conversation with him.] I admit.. this is new to me, but I am open to continuing, finding the niche that fits us.